Head under water and you tell me to breath easy for awhile...

I am way too old to be living here. I am becoming a whiney teenager again. I want to be able to do what I want. I want to cook my own food. I want to clean my own house. I want to decorate the way I want. I want to organize my kitchen in a LOGICAL way. My frustrations with living here are killing my relationship with my parents. It was different when I moved back in. I helped out, was happy, didn't mind because I wasn't going to be living here for more than 6 months... it's been 18 months... i'm still here.

I do need to stop whining though. My parents don't think I can take care of my own place. I can. They only see the part of me that sleeps in until 8am on Saturdays and likes to relax in the morning and do work in the afternoon. I have to get up early every day (and so do they), but urgh.. i feel like i'm whining over things that I should be thankful for. And I am. but I still need a change.

Basically I am a whiney little girl.

Comments/criticism/insight/etc... are welcome.

<3 JJ

Love Song -Four Year Strong (Punk Goes Pop vol.2)

meow meow meow meow...

I found this on HNet this morning.... i almost lol'd at work. :)

The Dog's Diary

8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!
12:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite thing!
1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing!
3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing!
5:00 pm - Dinner! My favorite thing!
7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing!
8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing!
11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing!



The Cat's Diary

Day 983 of My Captivity

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.

The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet. Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates my capabilities. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a "good little hunter" I am. Bastards!

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of "allergies." I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow, but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released, and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded. The bird must be an informant. I observe him communicate with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now ...

if you wanna sing out.. sing out

I just ate too much lo mein.. blah...

I just finished watching One Tree Hill. I'm not gonna lie, I definitely cried at least 3 times. It was good :)

There are some things I'd like to talk to you girls about... but there are some people (guy people) who know of this blog's existence... so I can't. But I'll hopefully fill you in on HNet soon (or via text for Dima)... but ya.. I'm confused a bit.

I picked a Cat Stevens song for today. I like it. It makes me feel better. Like I'm not as lost and drowning as I've felt lately.

night loves! <3 JJ

If You Want to Sing Out - Cat Stevens

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts

As always, the month that I choose to blog every day my life actually gets interesting and i have stuff to do. Friday night I went to a Dierks Bentely concert with my friend Scottie. It was really fun.

My family went to camp this weekend and I decided to stay home. I said that I had CPE homework to do for work, but have yet to actually do it. i did clean the whole house. I went to Deanna's (my college roommate) apartment last night, had some food, watched a cute kitten, and the breakfast club.

Today Church was outside and awesome. I am slightly sunburnt, and was completely soaked earlier due to an epic water balloon fight. Eli and his brother, sister, and a kid named Eric are over right now.

I'm tired... blahhh

loves -JJ

HAven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble <3

she told me her name was billie jean...

ummmm.. so ya.. Best Buy took Elle (my laptop) and game me a new one... I know it's the same thing and all... but I miss her :( This one feels more like a guy (I am so weird!!!) So.. ya, I am not happy because they took my laptop away and gave me this guy laptop, who I feel I must re-name, but ya.. I'm definitely going to have to name him.

Sorry, sometimes I type the way I think, which is random and has many ellipses and pauses and such.

I have to re-set up everything here, and I lost the blog post I wrote in the car. Basically it was amazing and i saw a lot of great tennis and semi-stalked Rafael Nadal at the practice courts and had jeremy take pictures for me. I will most likely put these on the facebook once I have time to move them over from my flash drive and re-edit them.

night loves!

<3 JJ

oh.. and since I have no music on this laptop as of now, the title comes from this video which is amazing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pm9L60YBj3s

I hate to see you cry...

so... I'm taking my MacBook in to BestBuy today... hopefully they can fix it quickly (or just give me a new one since i haven't done anything to it at all...) Yesterday was interesting, but i didn't get home until late.

-I worked all day
-Went to Eli's dorm to check out some adorable videos of us from High School
-Chris was in the videos and it made me miss him more :(
-Had dinner at a local sports bar and watched the Red Sox for awhile

Then I mentioned to my friend Steph that I wanted to get my hair cut, and what would she do to it if I let her (she's going to beauty school and will graduate in December). Long story short... 2 hours later I have the shortest hair cut that I have ever had in my life. It's cute, but i just need to get used to not being able to put it in a pony tail and styling it and such.

Tennis is starting up again soon (hopefully tonight) and I cannot wait! I need to get some of this stress out!

Anywho.. I'm at work and should get back to it :/

(will post later today for BEDS #3)

<3 JJ

Heart of Life -John Mayer

Oh I don't believe it...

So.... I just tried to upgrade my MacBook to the new operating system and it's being stupid. So I have to go to BestBuy tomorrow to see if they can fix it. I typed out a super long post about my weekend while driving (well..riding, not driving--that wouldn't have been safe) and it's on the Mac... So look forward to that tomorrow. I'm tired and going to bed.

Night loves!
<3 JJ


Song in My Head - Sherwood